I have recently been faced with numerous health challenges. The funny or not so funny thing about serious health issues is that you find yourself in moments of deep introspection. Over the course of the last few months I’ve had moments of profound reflection. So often I have heard the phrase “let go and let God”. Admittedly, I have often used it myself on more than one occasion. The fact is that when we are faced with the true application of this phase it is often easier said than done.
Being a wife, a mother, a friend, a businesswoman often requires that we assume many roles. It is considered an asset to be self-assured, confident and “in control. That becomes our “method of operation”. That “control” becomes a part of who we are and letting go of it is not always easy; even when we are relinquish control the Master’s hand. We somehow believe we can do it better faster and longer than anyone else. We convince ourselves that we are “faster than a speeding bullet, more powerful than a locomotive, able to leap tall buildings in a single bound. (Superman)”
It is during these moments of reflection that I had this epiphany of how easily we slip into the trap of being someone other than the masterpiece created in God’s image. We get so caught up in the day to day of trying to be ‘all things to all people’ that we forget to be who we are God.
There are those that would take advantage of kindness and generosity, those that take advantage of our need to be needed. There are even others that would attempt to mold us into something other than what God originally planned. It is up to us to study his word and delve deeper into the word of God to remain focused on his original plan for our lives.
Because of my recent health issues I learned quickly that there are many things outside of my control. As my body began to betray me, what I believed I was capable of was no longer my reality. I realized I could not control one muscle, one heartbeat, or one breath. All these things are according to the grace and mercy of God. It is then I realized it is up to us to be who he created us to be and to live according to the purpose and plan that he has for us. This is the only control given to us. I am reminded of a favorite poem.
Our Deepest Fear
By Marianne Williamson
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.
We ask ourselves
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us;
It’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we’re liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.
We must live out his purpose. For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast. Ephesians 2:8-9
It not of ourselves it is the grace of God that allows us to abound in every good work. I have a newfound appreciation for having life and life more abundantly, a newfound appreciation for the word of God that assures us “If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.” John 8:36 There is a definite freedom in knowing that you are living out your Godly purpose. It is only by relinquishing control to God that you are no longer bound. You are no longer bound by the limits and boundaries set by individuals who would manipulate who you are. It is a very slippery slope that we travel when others attempt and we allow others to control and manipulate us by their words and deeds. There is much liberation in being who you are and not allowing others to make that determination. Others do not get to control or define me by their words, actions or opinions. I can “let go and let God” because “I truly am who am”, in Christ and that is more than enough.